SPARTAN

        
Someone who is finding something in the life, can travel miles for that thing. In return of very small care, small love you can go beyond everything.
You know I am broken. I have talent, God blessed me with the ability to do anything that I wish to do.
But the person I find myself close to, they slowly disappears with time.
I tell this to no-one but I feel I am a failaure.I motivate a lots of people, so doesn't have scope to let them down.
I used to live very differently, be very different and now a completely different person.
This is very Golden period of life. The years which will make you or break you.
I felt that.How you live your rest of life is based on how you spent this time now..
I don't want anyone to be another me.I suffered, I am suffering.I don't want anyone else to be another me.
A person i loved more than anything he left me in such a dark, no matter how hard i am trying, Don't spoil your life for anyone .Please don't be next me.
I seek love, I seek care, I know all of us do. but Can we survive the pitfall again?I am willing to risk, but It is all circle.
Round and round and boom, you are again there where you have started.
thinking how kiddish you were.
Laugh on the fact that  you were sad.
The more I seek permanent, the more temporary I get.
This is my learning. I am broken, but I manged to live, to survive. to look happy and Partially be Happy.It's not that I am sad all the time.It has been two months like that.
It made me way calm, mature, good as a person.It opened my mind, changed the way I think.The way I love and want to love.but It have also changed something inside. I don't feel connected.It changed how I look. What I do. What I think.Care, Love is an addictive drug, the more you get it, the more you need it.Soon, you can't live without it.then suffering starts.No one knows, but for me, It has been worst as it can be.I am a super emotional person. 
Once I feel this person is mine, I can do everything for them.Call me stupid, crazy but In love,
If you want me to walk on fire.It's not that I can't love again, but Its like, We don't actually love a Person.
We love thier Habits, the way they talk, the way they express, they way they act, smile, behave and the person goes away, but we seek and expect the same from other person.
Which we know is rare to find as everyone is so different.
Who don't love late night chats,
I have dreams of romantic night with my beloved. More spiritual. I want to touch lives,
I am special, I want to help others where they are failing.
I want to stop the suffering for others.
I want someone as a partner who understands this.God has been always very kind to me.
I wish and he does it for me.
I wasn't talking to anyone.
I have very good freind.I suffer being alone, I had a very long Jouney to find myself.
I have Killed my anger.I am calm like a Sea.
I have Depth.Most of the time I have hold my tears, felt like I should hug my mom. but I didn't I know If I did, I am going to be broke in front of everyone.
Mom look at me and aksed what happened.
I remained slient with teary eyes. Mom understood everything, the tears,
I don't know how, they were transferred to my mom's eyes.
I have hugged my dad. He was like, have you done anything wrong.
I wanna to  told  everything, he told "kya hua".
Daddy said, you have your dreams, don't waste them.
I seek in life.That's not who I am.
I have to live in Sadness, well fine. But I will live with Truth, die with Dignity.
I hope you get something to learn out of it. People are hard to forget,
I am a forgive mentality person.
I don't have a That's who I am.
I am failed alone, maybe someone who can see sucess in me, not failure.
Make the world see it.
A lots to ask, Very Rare to find na.
I am not sure what are you thinking. You can judge me on thousand fronts later.
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